記者蘇晟彥/綜合報導
曾陪著TSM制霸整個LSC賽場、現任Dignitas輔助的Biofrost於8日在自身推特拋下震撼彈,他在開頭就表明「我是同性戀」出櫃,並講述自己在成長經歷中因為尋找認同、霸凌與歧視等原因懷疑自己,並點出在遊戲業中充斥「性別歧視、恐同」,引起社群熱烈關注。
在2016-2020年主要效力於TSM的輔助選手Biofrost(中間曾前往CLG戰隊),在這些年間曾幫助TSM拿下4次LCS冠軍,3度問鼎世界賽,隨後在2020年轉成實況主,去年再度回到職業賽場上效力。而在LCS賽區擁有高人氣的他,在8日晚間於自身推特出櫃,並向所有粉絲講述自己的自我認同故事。
他開宗明義就告訴所有粉絲,我是gay,我這一輩子都在自我認同的道路上奮鬥著。他講述自己在小時候就時常被人貼上「娘娘腔」、「gay」的標籤,就因為他表現的「不像男人」,他努力過讓自己不要看起來像這樣的人,但在學校還是時常遭到人霸凌,從來沒有找到任何歸屬感過。
他接著強調,即便現在進入電玩產業,時常會聽到工作人員、隊友的恐同言論,儘管讓他十分不舒服,但還是害怕坦承會丟掉工作,幸好,他花了很久的時間終於認同自己,也希望在這個產業中的人能夠正視這個問題,並有尊嚴、更正確的對待每一個人。
貼文一出讓許多粉絲動容,也感謝他為了自己、也為了身邊的人發出聲音,昔日戰友Doublelift大師兄也在底下回文表示支持並說,「你永遠是我最好的朋友,我很驕傲你能夠貼出你的想法」,許多粉絲也強調,「我們永遠愛你」、「不管你是誰,你永遠是我們的Bioforst」
I'm gay. I've struggled with my personal identity my entire life. While my parents were working in China, I moved around a lot from homestay to homestay, which is basically where you live in astranger's home.
At the age of 8, I was bombarded with homophobic and sexist remarks at home, and whenever I did something that wasn't "manly," I was told, "Why are you acting like a girl?" and to stop being "gay." I was hyper-conscious of how I should act and tried not to act or sound "gay," but I was still constantly bullied at school for it. No child should have to feel like they don't belong.
Working in the video game industry hasn't helped matters either. On almost every team I've been on, I've heard homophobic comments from either my teammates or the staff and felt uncomfortable, even borderline afraid of possibly losing my job if I told the truth.
I'm at a point in my life where I've accepted who I am, and it's taken me a long time to get there.My story is not unique. The gaming industry is rampant with sexism, prejudice, and homophobia.I don't believe there's a quick fix, but it starts with us holding ourselves to a higher standard and treating everyone with dignity.
We need to educate people in esports of proper conduct within the workplace. I'm not making this announcement because I owe everyone the details of my personal life, but because I want there to be more awareness about the problems our community faces.
Thank you to my parents and friends who have made me feel like I belong. You the real ones.
翻譯全文
我是同性戀,這一輩子都在自我認同的道路上奮鬥著。當我父母都在中國工作時,我幾乎都是在不同的寄宿家庭中停留,你大概可以想成在陌生人家中生活。
在8歲時,我在家裡時常遭受性別歧視、同性戀歧視的言語轟炸,每當我表現的「沒那麼男子氣概」時,我就會被罵說,「你為什麼看起來像個女生?不要那麼娘好嗎?」於是我想盡辦法讓自己看起來、或是聽起來「不要那麼gay」,但在學校還是時常遭到其他人霸凌,我想,沒有一個小孩想要感到自己沒有任何存在價值。
隨後,進入電玩產業並沒有解決這個問題,在大部分的戰隊中,我還是時常在隊友、工作人員中聽到恐同言論,對此我感到非常不舒服,但卻害怕說出真相會讓失去工作。
但走到人生現在這個階段,已經開始接受我是這樣的人,儘管花了非常長的時間。我的故事一點都不特別,但在電玩產業中確確實實充斥著恐同、性別歧視的氛圍。我相信這件事沒有辦法那麼快被改善,但至少得開始設立一個較高的標準,並有尊嚴的看待每一個人。
我們需要教育身處在電競產業的人做正確的行為,我之所以會貼出這個聲明,並不是我欠所有粉絲我的人生經歷,想告訴你們我的故事而已,而是希望更多人能明白在這裡我們所遇到的所有問題。
最後,感謝讓我找到自己、找到歸屬感的的父母、朋友。
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